"He's a good christian man"

Christianity is not about being good. This was a major revelation to me. The overwhelming assumption is that Christians hold a morally ascended position by default. I grew up believing I should really work to find God primarily for this reason. I went with friends to church time and again. I was prayed for constantly. I read the bible, I did everything I could to find Jesus and open my heart to him, but he never showed. I was mortified. I didn't want to go to hell, sure, but more important to me, I wanted to be good. I believed I was good and tried to do good, so why was Jesus so elusive to me. It then occurred to me through bible study, fellowship and sermon that being a good person was supposed to be a benefit of Jesus entering your heart, but was not a requirement. I was a good and moral person, I just wasn't a Christian. There was plenty of evidence pointing out the immoral acts of Christians. It turned out Christians were people just like anyone else. They made mistakes and they did good things and Christianity really played no part in the matter.

So, why become a Christian? To avoid hell? I never really bought that argument. Well, if you don't believe in God, you don't believe in that horrific concoction. I also felt it was anything but moral for someone to be sentenced to eternal torment for a finite crime. Thus, we enter a new era in my spiritual journey, "Was Christianity a thing to pursue?" Would a good and moral person actually follow the path put forth by this religion?

Guess what I decided...